Folks

Heyy Everyone you know who you are
I've been waiting here
Waiting a while
But it's okay J
Second chance or not
I can still light matches way better than you.
I still miss you, remember you, trust you.

It's kind of like this: There are folks. Who are folks. And can't change. Then there are folks. Who are folks. And can change. I have changed. I'm not the same girl. You have to know that. And forget about me. Please? Or, accept me for who I am. Others have...

I really really really need you now. :)

Lifes a game
One chance to play,
You start without knowing the rules

Happy Holidays

Six finals down, zero to go. Well, six more this year and twelve every year until I graduate...so 52 more finals!!! 104 hours!

I feel so far behind already. Before I’ve even started. And I wonder, is all of life that way? It isn’t plausible, not credible. Life is like an alarm clock: you think that you have so much time but you don’t. Take halloweening for example. I’m already getting too old. But a couple years ago I couldn’t imagine Halloween without trick-or-treating.

When life gives you bushes:
a) get a bushwhacker
b) make lemonade
c) study them
d) use them as firewood
e) ummm...since when does life give someone bushes.
f) a bush? OH you mean a shrubbery!

There are stages of Santa:
a) First, you believe in Santa.
b) Then you don’t believe in Santa
c) Then you are Santa
d) Then you look like Santa

What’s a funnier word than pineapple?
PINAPPLE! <3

Happy Holidays everyone and I mean it!

Life’s a game,
One chance to play
You start without knowing the rules

Sincerely,
Natalya

All of us

Yea, I felt sorry for you J. I thought you really needed help. Then you pushed me away...
And engaged in douchebaggery. Yea I’ll give you one more chance, that’s the kind of person I am. But will you take it? Or spit it in my face?

K!!! Oh wow! I will always be here, sister! And I love youu!!!!! We can be the best, rise to the top, see the wooooorld...
Of course I have no doubt that you know that. Of course you do. Cuz we are sisters...right?
I didn’t know what to say when you told me I could never be a PPP. But then you said I was being de-throned for M, I knew that that was your way of saying that we were equal. Cuz we are. :)

I don’t know what to say about E. He is the best I will ever know. Way better than MT. I won’t even go into that though...He is A’s business lol. But E is mine!! I know that he is my BFF other than K. Well, not really but we are the 3. The 3 that matter. That will be the best, rise to the top, and see this world. “L” , you guys!

And all of us, everyone that is important to me, I love you guys, know that, never forget it, it will never, ever change.

Life's a game,
one chance to play,
you start without knowing the rules

Sincerely,
Natalya

They said, You said

They said that I wasn’t living up to my expectations.
You said that I was everything I should be and more.

They said I could be cold,
You said you would be cold for me.

They said they couldn’t recognize me anymore,
You said that you would never care if I changed.

They said here’s a leash,
You said fly away there’s the world out there for you.

They said be strong, we’re counting on you,
You said be strong I’ll be here for you.

They said remember us,
You said I’ll remember you...

Thank you, I and I wish I could say the same for you...

Life's a game,
one chance to play,

you start without knowing the rules

Sincerely,

Natalya

Today is a gift

“A bird doesn't sing because it has an answer, it sings because it has a song.”

Thank you so much, so much, so much, all of you.
Without you I would be nowhere, just a thought.

“A story should have a beginning, a middle, and an end... but not necessarily in that order.”

I would like to take this moment to appreciate one person in particular: L.
You were the only one that noticed.
You weren’t even there
You just saw me 6 hours later.
But you still new,
You still cared.
That’s what matter’s in life: The people that know you more than you know yourself.

See, when finals are coming up, life is coming up, morals are coming up, and winter is coming up, you need to do something. Or the pit in your stomach gets larger, larger, larger...
And you see yourself in a new light.

Who do you want to be?

And who will you become? What will your future be? It will be wherever your home is, wherever the people you care about are. Home can be in your head, and home can be in your heart. Home can be with who you love.

Today is a gift, that’s why we call it present.

Life's a game,
one chance to play,

you start without knowing the rules

Sincerely,
Natalya

The Forgotten

If girls have to have their periods once a month, guys should be kicked in the balls once a month.
*sigh
Being bithchy is one thing, being mean is another.
I hope I didn't hurt you, no J I'm really sorry.
And you, of all people are not alone in the world.
I can promise you that.
You mean a lot to me, really.

And JG:

I whent home and cried for you

Tossed and turned all night

And I will again and again...

I will never truly leave forever, unless I amd forgotten.

Silence is of the essence.

Will I have left in a year?

A day?

An hour?

Perhaps this very minuet in fact I have melted out of sight?

Do you notice?

Do you care?

Because I do. And I always will.

Did you know that I am here?

Did you hear me scream into your ear?

Why didn't you look back?

Why didn't you respond?...

I thought it would all be okay

It still can be

the forgotten are'nt missed

The forgotten can watch their world change, but they can't change their world...

Life's a game,
one chance to play,
you start without knowing the rules

Sincerely,

Natalya

Two Kinds of People

My friend once told me that there were two kinds of people in this world: the kind that cared about you and were worth fighting for and the kind that didn’t and weren’t.

They were wrong: there ARE two kinds of people in this world: the kind that divide the world into two kinds of people and the kind that don’t. They are both worth fighting for.

There are two kinds of people in the world: the ones that suck the life out of every day, and the ones that let every day suck the life out of them. -- Bill Purdin

There may be two kinds of people in this world, but we all follow the same winding path into the sunset...

Lifes a game,
One chance to play,
You start without knowing the rules

Life's A Game, One Chance to Play

So this is the first post.

The start of a new life? Not hardly. The start of an old one getting larger, stranger, and more complex. . .

It's raining. Inside me there is a thunderstorm.
Of happiness,
sorrow,
stress,
but most of all confusion.

Every day I walk into school, fake a smile, and wonder who I am. Life is journy to figure that out. I hope that I have enough time.

Lifes a game,
One chance to play,
You start withought knowing the rules.

Sincerely,
Natalya