Hell Week

I didn't come up with that name. Out teachers did. Because we have 3 big projects due, a normal test week (about 4ish tests so not too bad), and rehersal from 4pm to 9:30 pm. Every. Single. Day. Thats why they call it hell week.

I'm sick. And there's no way out of it. I have to be at school and rehersal. But its not so bad. It really isn't. Because he's there for me through it all. And when we complain together it feels like there isn't anything to complain about. And I just realizied this all. Guess what? I'm not hating this... but next week will be so much better. I can't wait: but in the meantime I'll say it's hell week in every way but the way it matters most <3

Life's a game,
One Chance to Play
and you start without knowing the rules

Sincerely,
Natalya

Oxymoron

Sad Clown
Act normal
Little Giant
Zombie
Bitter Sweet
Nice Teacher

You and Me

Darn... you

Just because that girl isn't me,
Doesn't mean we haven't had a past,
I want to believe in fairy tales again,
Even though I know that it won't last.

Everytime that you just shake your head,
I know the time will come again,
Where we can laugh and talk and be ourselves,
Whithout the constant buzzing of that pain.

I want to know who you really are,
What you will become,
If you know what the hell you're talking about,
When you say you can't, you won't, not even wave...

Darn Fuck you...

Everything

You asked me what was wrong and I said "nothing."
When you walked away I started crying and said "everything."

Lifes a game
One chance to play,
You start without knowing the rules

Lyin

Oh tell me. That you don't understand. That you don't know better. Just don't lie. I can't handle that. Not any more. Please. I trust you. At least I try to. Sometimes you don't really give me a choice. So I'll lay it out for you. Nice and easy, right? If you don't understand this then... Oh I love you.

What I told you, Was that someone didn't need you

What I meant, was that I DID nee you

And how it worked out left me home alone again...

Even though I didn't see what it meant to me right then...

but NOW I KNOW

yes NOW I KNOW

But no te preocupes

Don't worry yourself with me

I feel as though this is how it's meant to be

I'll just sit, home alone

again

with my big vat of ice cream

eating more and more

And forgetting myself...

And remembering you...

I think it's time for me to leave

time to let go

let that branch fall
let that door close

let the world spin

let everyone else win

yes I'd better go...

I looked up during the movie

and I saw a bird outside

It just flew away

wouldn't remember me

wouldn't remember me

So why do I sit here

holding you hand

I'll be just like the others

Just another

Yes times were fun

But I never understood why I stayed

Why can't I run

Why can't I fly

Why can't I see

Why am I blind?

Why can't I breath,

Why can't I sigh

Why can't I talk,

Why am I not mine?

And I sit there

looking across the ocean

Blinded by red, orange, pink, purple, blue BLACK

Wanting nothing more than to know

Wanting nothing more than you

Why do I care about you?

Lifes a game
One chance to play,
You start without knowing the rules

Folks

Heyy Everyone you know who you are
I've been waiting here
Waiting a while
But it's okay J
Second chance or not
I can still light matches way better than you.
I still miss you, remember you, trust you.

It's kind of like this: There are folks. Who are folks. And can't change. Then there are folks. Who are folks. And can change. I have changed. I'm not the same girl. You have to know that. And forget about me. Please? Or, accept me for who I am. Others have...

I really really really need you now. :)

Lifes a game
One chance to play,
You start without knowing the rules

Happy Holidays

Six finals down, zero to go. Well, six more this year and twelve every year until I graduate...so 52 more finals!!! 104 hours!

I feel so far behind already. Before I’ve even started. And I wonder, is all of life that way? It isn’t plausible, not credible. Life is like an alarm clock: you think that you have so much time but you don’t. Take halloweening for example. I’m already getting too old. But a couple years ago I couldn’t imagine Halloween without trick-or-treating.

When life gives you bushes:
a) get a bushwhacker
b) make lemonade
c) study them
d) use them as firewood
e) ummm...since when does life give someone bushes.
f) a bush? OH you mean a shrubbery!

There are stages of Santa:
a) First, you believe in Santa.
b) Then you don’t believe in Santa
c) Then you are Santa
d) Then you look like Santa

What’s a funnier word than pineapple?
PINAPPLE! <3

Happy Holidays everyone and I mean it!

Life’s a game,
One chance to play
You start without knowing the rules

Sincerely,
Natalya